Peering Through

(When Lettice meets with Robert to tell him she is having his child and they should get married)

"That's true, said Robert. I will arrange it...There will be no more delay". (Holt 222)

Listening through the crack of the door Lettice and Robert were in, Elizabeth heard every word. She gasped when she heard that Lettice was with Robert's child. She had realized she had lost her one true love. She broke down in tears. All this time she had wasted on Robert, never truly going after what she wanted. She was not surprised that Lettice and he had been lovers because she always noticed the way those two looked at each other. It was the same way she would look at Robert. She thought for a second if there was a way for her to stop everything and turn back the clock. She could banish Lettice and their unborn child, and finally give into Robert. She could confess her love to Robert and put herself first for once. But she wouldn't, and she didn't. As much as she wanted too, she knew she was better off without him and would not let herself be with him. She had decided to pretend as if she never heard their conversation and let the two lovers be. Although the sight of Lettice made her nauseous and hateful, she had bigger things to worry about. And so she walked away from her regret hoping that one day if it was meant to be, Robert would find his way back to her. Until then, she spent her days in love with England.